Hello Fam! What an amazing month March has been! I’ve undergone a huge spiritual transformation that I can’t even begin to explain how deep it runs. I’ve been enjoying some quiet time of growth and my walk has gotten so much easier. My love of writing has drawn me out of my ‘secret place’ to share of myself and connect with you all because community is everything; nothing and nobody grows in isolation. Like the African proverb goes, if you want to go quickly, go alone; but if you want to go far, go together. Journey with me to the recovery of my soul.
I closed out February in numerous sessions of fasting and prayer, seeking God’s will and direction in both my private, family and social life. Initially my prayers involved asking God to show others their faults, and as is common in misinformed prayers like this, God turned the tables on me and proceeded to show me my faults instead. I asked again that others change and once again God shone the light on my, pointing out the changes I needed to make. I cried for mercy and he in-turn asked me to show mercy. A pattern was forming and I began to catch on and went proactive…
On the morning of March 5th 2019, in moments of rapturous praise and worship while in my hotel room in Amsterdam, I rededicated my life to God and pledged to follow his lead, to go where he leads, to abide in him. My heart had been filled with such joy and peace that it was the only thing to do. Even though I’ve always had a spiritual, practically my whole life, I haven’t felt that urge for a closer walk with God for close to a decade. In all honesty, I’ve been confused and complacent at best, and at worst I’ve been practically backslidden.
Now I’ve been spending some wonderful time in my prayer closet, and I mean that literally. Last month after watching the movie ‘War Room’ on Amazon Prime, I started to clear out my small walk-in closet so I could have a secret place to war in the spirit and do battle. This month, I finished the clear-out and brought in a thick fluffy rug for the floor, a tiny bookshelf to store my Bibles and other readings, a tiny study table for my Bible study sessions, and a comfortable laid-back Ikea swing chair for the hours I’ll be spending there getting to know the Father’s heart and forming an intimate friendship with God.
I feel the best I’ve felt in a long time and my journey to a closer walk with God is so very rewarding, calming, and insightful. There are things I can no longer do or say as God is shining his bright light in all my secret places and having me confess my sins and inequities as I study his word and get to know the Father’s heart. It’s a beautiful time in my life, a time of reckoning yet also a time of great comfort. I’m hoping you’re all here for it, and it’s my prayer that you stay the course and Journey with me into my Father’s heart. Cheers, Grey xoxo